RE appointment tomorrow. Apparently I’m still scarred from when he told me to lose 5lbs (*&#%$&!) and so I’ve been low-carbin’ it since yesterday. That should help me lose the water weight I’ve been bloating up on over the last week with too many tasty treats. Celebrating job, our friend in town, and the overall joy of October took its toll.
I’ll gain it all back this coming weekend anyway because SEATTLE and CUPCAKES and HOT COCOA and PECAN STICKY BUNS and CRUMPETS and TEA and PHO and and and –
And I know 5lbs isn’t anything, which is partially why I was (and am) a little upset. I have worked so hard for so long to accept my body with all its pudge and rolls and now muscles too and accept the fact that I will never be tiny or skinny or fit into a size 10 pants or have a flat stomach etc etc and that my body is perfect now, the way it is. But even with all the work I’ve put in, it doesn’t take much to make me feel insecure and too fat again. Which is fucking ridiculous, because I am in fact a perfectly normal/healthy/whatever size/weight. Argh.
In the meantime, trying to think up appropriate questions for tomorrow, but between ya’ll and the greater internet, I might know more about this whole thing than the doctor. 😛 Not really, but you know, I could definitely teach a class on it.