I haven’t really been posting about the cakes I’ve been making for cake month, because one I’d made last year (see: almond cake) and the other was a plain white cake that really needed some work. It tasted fine, but was just too dense.
But this weekend I tweaked that white cake recipe from last week, added figs, and slathered the resulting cupcakes with mascarpone frosting. When I have a chance, I will totally share the recipe. I’m pleased with the way the cake came out this time and will definitely use that (tweaked) recipe for future fluffy white cakes.
I feel like I’m slowly pulling myself back together, piece by tiny piece. I forced my wife and a friend to wake up early and go on a strenuous hike Saturday morning. I needed that. But I also feel like I need a strenuous hike every morning right now, which I can’t exactly get. So I’ve been running instead. It’s a start.
Other (small) achievements, today vs Friday (and most of last week, tbh): today I was not consumed with rage when my coworker stood up, sat down, and stood up again; today I did not cry when someone asked me how I was; today I was able to concentrate and do this thing called work; today I positively interacted with coworkers; today I was not filled with a nameless dread at the thought of staying at work all day; today I wrote; today I looked people in the face and sometimes even managed a smile.